happy new year....

well yay got a happy new year, with a lot of friends, everybody was drunk, they had fun loud good musik and everybody was excited for the NEW YEAR 2007 AWESOME...

well yes not for me..

i was at sam's and hannes was there so.. it was quiet and we had fun being together.. so well yes.. i saw some firework infront of the tv... and there was not even some alcohol.. but ok.. i can have fun without it..

its not the same.. im already excited for next year...

happy new year.. im missing you all so bad...

nina

when you hold a newborn,

you realise, how much your mom loves you...

i read that a few hours ao in a baby magazine at kims house.. she is my second oldest host sister.. well .. sice the 26nd of december.. her family has a new member.. ella.. ella ann and i am aunt.. and she is so adorable.. i love this little baby.. she doesnt scream at all and she is always calm and her face.. *sigh*

well.. her little heart it made me think about this phrase about what it said..

and i thought about the feeling i had when i looked into her eyes, that were so tired and so deep, she had no idea of life, she doesnt even know were she is.. she has got her mom.. her dad and emma, thats al she needs.. she doesnt know anything.. besides baba and dada.. and.. kim loves her, becky loves her.. betzy loves her..

i love her.. and just because she is what she is.. this love.. this love in me for her.. how much love must be in kim.. for her.. for ella ann and emma june..

mom's always have that kind of love..

when you hold a newborn in your arm's you realize how much you mom loves you..

Incubus - I miss you

To see you when I wake up
is a gift I didn't think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
is a three-fold, utopian dream.
You do something to me that I can't explain.
So would I be out of line if I said,
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days, but already I'm wasting away.
I know I'll see you again
whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
and I miss you.

Henna

I have some new henna tattoos.. this one is my fave band.. Subway to sally on my left under Arm

http://pixel-pics.de/img-1167292700.jpg

this one is my right ankle..

http://pixel-pics.de/img-1167293173.jpg

this on my wrist.. the left one..

http://pixel-pics.de/img-1167293458.jpg

i like them...

the chinese one means pain..

Nina

Pain

this is the chinese sign for pain...

its on my left wrist.. just henna, but i really like it..

do i have to worry..

well do i have to worry? i am not on my old spot at my best friends myspace...

so do i have to worry, i didnt called two days ago when i said i will.. and i didnt.. im sry but there was stuff to do because it was christmas and since we have a baby well my host sister got her baby t'day and we were at grandma's the day before and now i feel bad..

she skewed me behind laura.. and aura is seriously one of the most horrible fakers at home, why is she doing that.. before that i was right behind her parents and her sister.. and now? i dont know..

we are writing on msn and i dont know if i can still call her t'day or not.. i really want to ... i feel so bad because of it.. and she is not even writing a lot... question marks and smilys.. thats alll what did I do wrong.. honey im so sorry..

or do i just worry to much?

nina

Merry Christmas

Hey.. ya'll at home.. well tomorrow is christmas eve and i just wanted to tell you all, that i think of you at home al lot..

and eventhough i cant be home this year, i hope that your christmas is as wonderfull as mine last year, cause my christmas will be totally different this year.. totally...

i love you at home..

honey i love you so freaking much..

miss you and merry christmas